A sad, busy and exhausted Week

With my second semester final exams and final projects, I had been struggling managing my time this week. All the sad and disturbing news of the aftermath of Cyclone were just driving me crazy and angry.

I were wanting to go back and help the suffering victims but it was impossible as I don't have money to go back from US to Myanmar. I don't want to give my dad another burden as his factory also collasped during the cyclone and had been busy. All I could do was trying to fund-raise in the campus among Burmese community. We wanted to plan an event but with finals coming up, no one seems interested and the campus had been quite deserted. We decided to donate the money that we rasied in food sale previously and persuade our friends to donate as much as they can. We had a little more than 2000US$. That was all we can do. I felt really guilty of not doing enough. My friends in Myanmar said even if I go back, I wouldn't be able to go deep into the disasterous areas but I saw people going there. (May be my friends are just comforting me.)

I was supposed to review my calculus every night as it was kinda hard for me but ended up in front of my laptop, googling the news every five minutes, dreaming if any country would do humanitarian intervention. However, I fed up reading all the rhetoric condemnations and statements released by governments and organizations. Passing midnight everyday without recognizing it was already twelve. Lack of enough sleep also making me dizzy during class and reviews. I was lucky one architecture class finished a week earlier. I did the final project in a rush but again lucky it went quite well. Another design class needed me to buy stuffs for the final project and I had to do the last minute shopping and project which made me stopped reviewing all other remaining classes including my bad calculus. Fortunately I did not need to take the final for political science class since I got all As in previous exams. This lifted a lot of burden on me. At last, I had only calculus and english left. Well, as I expected, I did really bad on the math exam as I had only two hours of sleep (I was wasting time googling news for every one hour)and couldn't concentrate in solving the problems, leading me to make stupid mistakes. At last, I have only two more essays to write for my English final. Feeling exhausted, I could care much more and just took it as easy-going as I can.

It's all done now but I still need to figure out and suggest where our fund-raised money would go to. Hearing that NGOs were blocked (may be true or not), all news are unreliable at this time, I had to contact my friends inside Myanmar to inquire the NGOs they are working with. We should send the money as quickly as possible but we were stuck in the decisions of where to be donated. Gonna act quick. Soon.